EDIT: I was so scared people were going to be mad at me on deviant art! but you guys were so understanding, thank you all so. so. SO. much. It means the world to me.

"Ana Maria" (is actually by Beethoven?)

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I posted this youtube video asking for donations so I can go to college. It wasn't answered very humbly. Sort yelled at, completely disreguarded as a e-begging. Yes. It was begging. Yes I'm that desperate to go to college.. College would be fantastic.. just new, i'd be able to apply myself more to a structured environment. Stubborn in the sense that I don't want to owe money to a invisible force. I don't want to get in debt. To pay off something for 30 years (because the USA is now thinking about enforcing that, 'making that a required turn of events' -SAYS THE ECONOMY). If it's an investment in myself then why must I be paying off someone?

As a artist do you know how based on chance it is to do something for money? To take something from the soul and put a price on it. It hurts me, just because money is so.. greed ridden, dollar bills being the answer to everything, or the destruction of everything. Of course I feel that way, I'm a artist, silly.

I don't charge for my things I just ask if the person would like to pay.

I don't like the fact that I have to charge.

I wish I didn't have to.

I will find a way to raise enough money and go to college.

I'll math my way through life. Become a waitress when all I really would wish to do is paint.

I have trouble talking to people if I don't.. practice.. and.. think it out.

Whine whine whine..

I haven't seen the moon in days..

I wish to see the moon sometime.